Right now, I am feeling like
I feel lost but am I really? Because I don’t know where I want to go! And like the old cat told
Strange. Odd. Peculiar. Strange. Yes, that’s the right word. I feel like I am transcending to another phase, like this is just the in-between place. But what next? Am I going to the next phase at all? Or am I just feeling this way? And what is the next phase? Where to from here? Do I want to leave at all? No I don’t! I am comfortable here. I am fine. I have made my place, I know the people. No one bothers me. I am just fine. And yet this feeling of uneasiness, like gas in the tummy in a public place. You want to fart real bad but just can’t let go.
What is this that I am feeling, really? I feel like arriving somewhere – like I ought to, you know, ARRIVE, in the real sense of the word. But that never happens.
Am I low on self esteem? Don’t I trust myself? Am I scared that if I move out of my comfort zone I’ll fail miserably? Am I scared of setting foot in new territory?
Hell yes I am! It has taken a lot to build all this that I have now. I can’t throw it all away just like that. But why this nagging feeling like a task has been left half-done? Is there anything else that I am meant to be? Is there any place else that I ought to be in?
How do I get an answer to all of these? How do I get out of the tunnel? How did
Damn. I should have read the whole of