A boy once asked me if I was in love. I said, “Love is a big word.”
It was probably the most wrong thing to say. I came to know later that he had realized that I had a soft corner for him. And he was probably trying to find out how deep my feelings were.
Yes, I shot myself in the foot. Allegorically speaking, i.e.
Such situations are rather un-nice. How do I know if it really is love or just a passing phase? Yeah, I really like the boy. He is good, we get along well, and we have common things to talk about. But how do I know if this is it?!
And another question: if he is moving away from me, should I let him go, or try and hold him back, and make things happen?
I mean, I know there’s this famous saying: “Let go of the one you love. If he comes back, he is yours; if he doesn’t, he was never meant to be yours.”
But what if he is waiting for me to say something and is going away because of my silence? How do I gauge the situation? How do I know what the right thing to say is?!
More importantly, how do I know how deep this is? Everything seems perfect with him around. But is this really it?!
I can’t believe that I am still asking such stupid questions, like some love struck teenager! I should have found the answers by now.
It’s damn irritating.
Lord, please help me out of this lousy situation. And please please please help me grow up!