Wednesday, May 26, 2010

What goes around comes around

Dear Roommate,

The days have been a little rough for me. I have felt depressed, left out, abandoned, ignored, angry…

And suddenly I realised that I am not the only one who has been through the motions. You have been through this too. I should know. After all, I am the one who made you go through it all…

I didn’t understand. I didn’t realise how much pain I caused by leaving you out of the “secrets” that I shared with my new “friends”. I didn’t comprehend the hurt that I caused by choosing a complete stranger over you – you, who were there for me always.

I never got it when you lost your temper for little things. I thought you were immature, that you didn’t understand my need for space; that you didn’t respect my privacy. I even thought you were jealous…

Perhaps it’s too late to apologise, because the moment of forgiveness has passed. I have lost the friend that I once had.

But I want you to know that I understand now. I understand what you had to go through because of me.

And I want you to know that I am sorry. For everything that I did. And perhaps, more, for the things I didn’t.